The chance of something happening here in Honduras is just as likely as the chance of it not happening. Whether you dedicate hours of careful planning or design a step-by-step manual, it still might not happen. I cannot tell you the number of times I have made appointments at places that are later closed. Bought tickets for a show that does not happen. Planned a trip that was cancelled. Or, depended on a forecast that was far from the truth.
Here in Honduras the weather forecast is always Partly sunny, partly cloudy with a chance of rain. The be-ready-for-anything attitude that everyone, willing or unwilling, must shoulder can be a weight on the soul. Why can’t it go smoothly just this once?
Once in a blue moon you see an angel flutter through your preview. Someone who deals with the ups and downs with grace and patience. Some one that cares just enough but ultimately leaves everything to fate. Not a bumbling disaster who has no idea and doesn’t care anyway. Not an overbearing, super controlling individual that spends all their waking hours trying to swim upstream. Not a person who has given up and is just going with the flow. Instead, a person who has decided to live life to the fullest. Someone who’s plan B makes just as much sense as their plan A. A person whose desires are reasonable, and whose expectations are always cheerful and optimistic.
I want to be that person. God has made this my mission. I want to soften, and slow down. I want to remain productive but still be willing to sacrifice productivity for peace. I need to work towards being more flexible and malleable.
It is there with a softened heart that I feel closer to God. His voice is clear as day. I make the right decisions, and I can write my devotionals easily.
“Alexa” “What’s the weather today?” “Today in San Juan, Honduras, it will be partly sunny, partly cloudy with a chance of rain.”
Just what I thought.
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