Rule of Life Day 10 – Let You be enough.
I am trying to answer the following question in my life: Do I view God or myself as the provider? Let me ask myself again: Do I view God or myself as the provider?
I go back and forth. I worry and I plan. I plan and I trust. I trust and have faith. But Do I view God or myself as the provider?
I know God is my provider. He has proven that to me over and over again. I say that with confidence. I know he gives me everything I need. I know that if I “need” something and don’t have it, I should probably readjust my point of view on my idea of “need”. But again, Do I view God or myself as the provider?
I do all the work don’t I? I get up early and work all day. If I don’t work, things don’t get done. I am the only one that pays my bills. I am a good provider. I don’t need much, just a little more than before. I just want to give my kids what they need. They should have a life like I had. Do I view God or myself as the provider?
The question is clear. Do I view God as the provider? No. I don’t. A reflection that today has hit home. I love Him. I believe in Him. I have faith. I trust in the power of prayer. But I am hopelessly defined by wealth and abundance. I have no idea what need is really defined as through Christ’s eyes. I am spoiled. I have too much.
I have committed to writing these blogs and sometimes they are you and sometimes they are for God, but this one is for me.
Father, let me rest in the abundance of grace your richness of life and your wealth of wisdom. Let love guide me and You be enough. Amen.